That last point is so easy to miss, as I often get dismayed or disappointed in my own areas of failure. I want to put an action plan in place, and I want to do it NOW. But the truth is, even my perspective on what needs to change is tainted. Flawed. Broken. I must be led elsewhere by Someone who knows me inside and out, and knows the path.
Soul Searching is an intimate and tender form of prayer. We invite God into those broken and confusing places, and listen in those places as He leads us out.
Stay the course, friend. This is not for the faint of heart. But the joy-filled result of having God re-work your interior world is well worth the cost of opening up. You're opening up to healing.
Take an honest look inside, guided by the Holy Spirit. You're in good hands.